You would go to bed at 11 p.m. But get asleep at 3 a.m. Insomnia is what you have, Pills just don’t work on you.
Alarm should ring at 6. You were awake for 2 hours Thinking about how fat you look And what were you going to eat all day.
People would say, How bright you are. Clarity at school, Euphoria while doing sports.
But everything is a lie, Empty inside Covered with a drug Amphetamine it’s called.
Time for lunch, You said: “I’m fine, I’m not hungry” It wasn’t a lie for them, You were lying yourself.
Sitting on the table, Staring at the food Mom and dad looking at you While waiting the right moment to hide food
You asked for water, While covering meat, In the pocket is introduced No one saw a thing.
Time for ballet, Dance is discipline Strict and rightness You feel pressure for thin.
Weighted at night, First time in months, Started at 110 lbs But the scale says 100 lbs.
Too much for your eyes, Long way to go, Thin is in, And it’s never enough.
Fighting for what? Is there any reason? If I will end sick, Just never give up.
Problems must have solutions. One day, someone asked you What would you do if you were so fucked up, that you wouldn’t know what to do? I would stop eating, till they take me too the hospital.
Maybe your innocence is so big, Everyone thinks you are dumb, But what it’s true, Your intelligence is big.
If they asked you about your rehab, You would say, I’m wearing a white dress, And know I can eat yogurt, hazelnuts And soup. Innocence comes again.
If we go to the past, Memories come back How doest it started? Do you remember?
Skipping the breakfast, Changing habits, Fruit and veggies, Not more meat.
But everything changes, You don’t mind quality only, Size is the answer. Size for food, size for you.
No thanks for good, Yes thanks for dead. Time must wait, Till you are that thin.
A step in the scale, Wow its 80 lbs, You can’t see yourself thin Long way to go.
Today you woke up, You though how sad you are. Before you were happy, Energetic and social.
Why know? It is that late? Yes it is, Now you are dead.